its all bout life..

Kalau kene pilih antara kawan dengan kekasih,agak2 korg akan pilih yang mana? Pilih kawan yang dah lama menjadi peneman sebelum korg jmpe kekasih hati, cuba membantu setiap kali ade masalah, meminjamkan bahu die semasa susah dan senang (kalo kwn korg ade ciri2 ney la kan) atau memilih kekasih hati yang mungkin ye mungkin tidak akan menemani korg sampai akhir hayat (bukan korg tau pon kan jodoh korg sape), menceriakan hari2 anda dengan kasih sayang, mengajar erti cinta sejati (kononnye~) dan lain2 lagi istilah dunia percintaan ney.yang aki sendiri tak arif pon. Maner yang jadik pilihan? Sendiri pikir,takyah bgtau pilihan korg sape.

Memilih antara 2 yang penting dalam hidup ney (selain ibubapa dan keluarga) susah kan? Kalau salah sorang ade kekurangan,boleh letak pros and cons setiap pilihan, mungkin senang, tapi tak bermakna yang kurang kelebihan tuh tak layak di berikan peluang kan? Tapi topic ney, berkecuali bagi kekasih hati yang telah ade hubungan sah-suami/isteri xmasuk dalam pilihan yer.

Perjalanan hidup selalu membuatkan kite terpaksa memilih, semua pon tentang pilihan, mcm pegi shopping jugak la lebey kurang. Xsemestinya yang lawa dan mahal berkualiti. Nak jumpe saiz baju yang bersesuaian pun bagi sesetengah org susah, ni kan pule nak pilih antara 2 manusia yang sama penting. Bagi aku la kan, sama penting, selagi die belom jabat tangan tok kadi, tp korg tatau la pulak. Mengharapkan kedua duanye sama sempurna pon misi mustahil jugak. Mesti ade kekurangannye, mesti~ sbb dorg bukan superhero,bukan cik/incik perfecto.

Kalau korg jadik org yang kene pilih antara kawan dan kekasih, lain kedudukannye dengan jadik kekasih yang akan di pilih oleh kekasih die over kawan die atau tidak dan kedudukan seorg kawan yang akan di pilih oleh kawan die over kekasih die ke tak, bunyi macam complicated, tapi kedudukan dan pertimbangan si A(org yg kene buat pilihan), B(kekasih hati) dan C(kawan) berlainan dan berlawanan.

Memilih dan menerima akibat pilihan tuh pon sama penting,bagi perempuan terutamanye, sbb pemikiran dorg lebih mencapah, semua nak kene piker.

Nasihat utk org yang kene pilih : selagi kekasih tuh bukan org yang sah,takde sijil nikah, die sama penting dengan kawan korg jek,xyah di kongkong dan terkongkong. Dan kawan korg pon penting jugak, selagi die tak menyusahkan perhubungan korg dengan kekasih hati la kan.

Nasihat utk kekasih hati: cuba jadi kawan jugak dengan kwn2 kekasih korg, xyah mendominasi dengan tiket sebagai kekasih, selagi korg takde sijil nikah sbb kekasih anda itu masih milik keluarga die.

Nasihat utk kawan: tak payah masuk campur dalam perhubungan chenta kwn korg, bagi nasihat berpada gak,lagik baik kalau jadik pendengar jek dan bagi nasihat pada tempat dan masa yang betul. Dan yang lagi penting, doakan moga hubungan dorg bahagia, xsusahkan korg.

Amaran: artikel ni mayb bias dan tak berape sesuai utk di jadikan bukti kat mahkamah, sekadar perkongsian pendapat dan berdasarkan pengalaman sendiri jugak. Kalau ade spe2 yg terasa hati atau ape2 masalah hati yang lain, atas risiko sendiri.

sometimes silence is the best explanation you can give rather than bunch of words that only will make a heart fall apart..or,it maybe just an excuse you have when everything seems to be out of line.

save yourself a space to be alone, to rest and to run from others..

and hopefully a second to think and get all the straight that needed to continue to walk again..

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its been a while since my last post,kot?

there are a lot of things in my mind right now..

- how my life will be as an intern?

- could i be a good doctor?

- can i hold the responsibility?

- will i do harm instead of doing good?

- where will i be posted to?

- who will be my new colleage?

- will i be okay?

- can i still be me?

- etc etc etc..

too much of quest and i dont have any answers to that, even one..but i know sumthing - i will try my best insyaallah for all that coming tomorrow..

and i miss my dearie friends, lecturers, hukm, wards, patients and smell of medication in wards. its really my life there.

sedeynyer nk tinggalkan hukm..

nak berpisah dgn kwn2..

kembali ke haluan msg2 lepas ney..

takder da seriau nk tgu result exam, hidop tak terurus tiap kali nak exam, sibok kejar dateline cwu, seminar, teaching semue. rindula nk rasa seronok keluar abes exam, duduk kat rum dan meja ni check fs dan fb. bnyaknyer kenangan kat hukm ney, dr ktsn smpi ktdi, 5thn kejap jek rasanyer.

kwn2, selamat berjaye wktu ho, dan utk yg reseat, insyaallah korg semua akn menyusul 6 bulan lepas ni, kejap jek. pnjg umor jumpe lagi..

alhamdulillah,179 orang pelajar perubatan tahun akhir berjaya mendapatkan gelaran MD (UKM) setelah berhempas pulas selama 5thn. walaupun ader beberapa org yg tercicir dari senarai ni, insyaallah korang semua akan tetap dapat title ini dalam masa 6 bulan lagi, we all going 2b doctors, its just a matter of time. pejam celik jek, nama korang akan di umumkan oleh prof lokman and we will be colleague again~

seronok dengar nama di umumkan - A99218 norhuda sjamsuddin, lulus~ perkataan pertama yang keluar hanya syukur ke hadrat ilahi, speechless dah. selesai semua tuh,call parents la kan,and this title really means a lot 2me sbb smlm birthday mak yg ke 50, i really wanna give her this as her bufday present, although time calling tuh, speechless gak sbb mata berair dah, tambah2 lagi bler dgr suara mak happy and say congratz, im glad i make it, dan skrg, time menaip entry ney,mata saye mseh lagi berkaca2, =p. time call abah pon cmtuh gak. they both deserve this after being there for me all the time, i love them both, soo much~

dlm seronok2 ney, ader seorg kwn baik yg baru kehilangan mak die di kala2 menunggu result exam cm ktrg, moga2 die di beri kekuatan dan kesabaran menempuh semua ney, die mmg tabah, dan aku kagum dgn die, sbb dgn ktrg die sgt manje smpi jadi mangsa buli ktrg, tp biler tgk die smlm, nampak ketabahan die wpon hati die sedey. m proud of her,really..

dan today, semua org sebuk2 kemas barang,packing stuff semua and going to be home in a few days. this is where all of us will be going in our separate ways. we will no longer bump into each other in this hukm area, and will meet up during our graduation day in august,insyaallah. things will be alot different that time, like what prof and dr nasir said the other day. where we all going to be posted to and way we will having our HO will shape us into a new person, a more mature doctor in town i hope. but i do really hope that we can still smile in the same picture few months after this. we will be apart but our heart can still be close to each other kan?  especially with this 11 ‘crazy girls’ who use to hanging around with me most of the time, i will be missing you guys, soo badly, and i already do. other mates for this 5 years, honestly, i still do not know some of you guys name but i do remember ur faces, really nice being a colleague with you guys, and i sure will miss you all.

setiap pertemuan pasti ader perpisahan dan the time has come for me,its now. i will be missing a lot here in hukm, ktsn because here i spend 5 years of my life, and i really glad being here with you all my colleague, my lecturers and others who get involve in my life while im here.

i want to pass this exam badly, i never wanted sumthing so much like this before,but this, my final ikhtisas,my clinical exam, its totally different. nothing except for few things that i really care most, including this.

the anxiety have been there since our last theory paper, i keep having different type of nightmares and sometimes wake up with SOB, owh this feeling is killing me, really. i become more sensitive toward others, low threshold for almost everything. i’ve never been like this before, even during my spm days. those who really close with me would realize this. i even called them and cry only, my mum, tak payah la kire, she’s been listening that for 5yrs, aih.

at this time,2morrow, i will be clerking patient at level 10, presenting and been in discussion with 4 doctors atleast in each session. after 2 hrs, thats it, it will be over, and… yes, result next tuesday. its hard for me to mengadu with other fwens which not in medicine area because they sometimes doesnt really understand how i feel being in this kind of situation. but, they do make me relax and calm. i cant really bother this girls here much because they were in the same situation as me also, struggling.

for those that i bother much during my exam weeks, thnx and sorry. i appreciate it, really. and if i’m passing this exam,insyaallah, you guys are counted as being part of me. thnx againt, have to take care for another ‘childish’ sister for a while. especially you, fahmi, so sorry bcoz i bother u another day, have to check on me everyday since that, thnx dear~

RULES:

1. Put your music player on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

*IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY?” YOU SAY?

situasi (bunkface)

:: maksudnye ader sumthing la kan?hee~ ::

*WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

waktu yg di nanti (ungu)

:: erk..wktu aper? ::

*HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

tiara (kris)

:: xmjwp soklan ney ::

*WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?

ketulusan hati (anuar zain)

:: hee, saye mencari ketulusan hati ::

*WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

give my love (OST save ur last dance for me)

:: manyak love mau kasik~ kat saper ae?? ::

*WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

lucky (jason mraz+colbie callay)

:: saye lucky?ngee~ ::

*WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?

sempurna (andra and the backbone)

:: mereka sempurna utk sayer~ ::

*WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

whenever there is u (koop)

:: saper ‘u’ ney?urmm.. ::

*WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTFRIEND?

like only a woman can (brian McFadden)

:: kalo die man cmner? ::

*WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

cinta ini membunuhku (d masiv)

:: hehe, takder la smpi tahap tuh ::

*WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

love remains the same (gavin rossdale)

:: hopefully luv remain d same, in a better way ::

*WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

pesawat (mirage)

:: pesawat? Pramugari?pilot? ker doctor ader plane sndiri?hehe ::

*WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

sana (diddy)

:: aper ader kat san? ::

*WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

i feel in love with d DJ (che’nelle)

:: I feel in love wit incik hubby laa,maner ley DJ ak ::

*WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

memori tercipta (sheila OIM)

:: erk,kat funeral ader memori tcipta ker? ::

*WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

play boy (matta band)

:: hahaha,gelak guling2..::

*WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?

i’ll do anything (jason mraz)

:: … ::

*WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

diary of jane (breaking benjamin)

:: diary of jane maner ney?my own diary pon tader ::

*WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

hanya dirimu (dygta ft meda)

:: hanye dirimu?yer..::

:: membuang masa yg xbaper nak ader ::

at last, the day come. my profesional exam, for medical degree. its the day that all of us been waiting for, in the same time the most scary one i think,hee~ 1st day was data interpretation, and one hour and 40 minutes pass tru in a blink. my DI quest memuler was forensic and ENT last skali. sempat la kan rasa tremor baca 1st quest tuh but after that was okey, =) not sort of okey ley jwp semua but almost laa. next week will be tough, with 4 PMP and 2 MCQ, 4 days in a row, and then CLINICAL EXAM~~ waa, saper la examiner?aper la kes yg ley dapat? one long case and 3 short case and akan berlalu dgn cepat skali kan? mau lulus~~

btw, its already 5 years kan? sedar xsedar jek. gud luck kwn2~

:: i want all of us, pelajar perubatan tahun akhir 2008/2009 UKM lulus and grad bersame~ ::

di hari2 jumaat yg barakah ini, saye telah di sapa dengan kasar dan agak biadap oleh seorang lelaki. emo~ i2lah yg terpk oleh saye tatkala incik i2 mengeluarkan bebelan mak nenek die. slalu org kaitan emo ney dgn perempuan, tp ney, biler tgk lelaki emo, sguh la kasar dan tdk sopan betol! betol lelaki akan menggunakan perkataan yg kasar bagi saye seorang perempuan yg mendengar bila bersama dgn kaum2 sejantina dan kwn2 rpt, tp incik sorg ney, bahasa nyer~ kalo ngn mak, da lama kene piat telinga. xsukernyer~~

saye pon ikot emo gak dgn incik ney. suka suki die ajer nk marah orang2 yg ader kaitan dengan profesional doktor, smpi medical student yg duduk x buat aper2 pon kene hambur skali. adeilah, kalau ye pon marah kat nyamuk sekor, tak payahla habes kelambu nk di bakar. bebelan dan hamburan incik i2 hanya dijawap dengan muka blur dan tdk ader perasaan jek, mungkin kalo saye turut emo secara terang2an, lain la jadiknye. kalo kira haeiraki (haha,ejaan salah mls nk tuka), die tuh kecik jek jwtan pon tp kan kiter perlukan semua org xkira jwtn utk laksanakan kerja2 ney. kot ye pon org tuh salah, tego baik2 tabley ker, ni siap hambur org lain. seyesly, sgt2 xsuker perangai incik tuh, berlagak, biadap dan tdk profesional~~

:: ye saye emo,sbb kebiadapan die yg tabley di terima ::